Saturday, February 24, 2018

Time Warp

We just left a week ago, but here we are again.  The hospital is becoming a second home. We haven't had a back to back visit since May.
Everything is in his limbs today, no abnormal facial expressions, and we are going on 11 hours. He is dehydrated, so they're struggling to find a vein for the second IV. We are both exhausted.

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Same inquiry, different question...

Today we discussed the difference between the following two questions.

Is he (Lennon) getting better?
How is he doing?

Essentially, people are asking the same thing; but the second question is much easier to answer.


  • Is he (Lennon) getting better?
    • This is hard to answer because the short term may appear better, but we know that long-term the outlook is not good.
      • There really isn't a better.  His condition is progressive. It will get worse over time.
  • How is he doing?
    • This question is easy to answer because we can use specific criteria to answer.
      • He's doing as well as can be expected. He had a good day today.  We are back on our normal routine. Today was seizure free. 



Today was a good day for the whole family.  Dad is getting moved back to the day shift. I got to see my students again. Lennon really enjoyed daycare and was happy and talkative when I picked him up this afternoon.  Tonight, the six of us went to eat with our good friend, Johnny, for $2 tostadas at I Don't Care. (If you live in DC, they're definitely worth it!)  Everyone talked about how much better Lennon looked than yesterday. He ate well, he was supporting himself at times, and of course he was happy.  The kid LOVES to eat!

Monday, February 19, 2018

Back to the Real World

I went to the teacher inservice today while dad got to enjoy a day off with all the kiddos. This was our last buffer day before going back to the Real World.

I miss my students. It's been a full week since I've been in the classroom. When I went in tonight to print for tomorrow, I saw all the gifts they brought me for Valentine's Day. I'm overwhelmed.

Much like Lennon, those kiddos bring so much joy to my life. They are hardworking, compassionate, and understanding. I consider myself fortunate to be their teacher.  Life with Lennon has taught me that time is precious. I've learned to make the most of small moments, especially those teachable moments about real-world issues.  I know tomorrow they're going to ask a lot of questions. They're also going to want me to say that the doctors found a cure for Lennon. (It's scary to think that he may only live to be their age.)

For now, I'm content to see his beautiful smile and listen to him ask for cookies. (I'm equally happy to listen to his snoring as I type.)

The Anniversary

Hopefully, you've read the backstory about Lennon's diagnosis.  If not, look for the Valentine's Day entry on the Diagnosis page.

On February 13th (you know, one day before the anniversary of his first seizure) Lennon woke up to facial twitching.  I took him to the ER and started a journey eerily similar to our first stay at Wesley Childrens Hospital. The exception is that the seizures stopped prior to our arrival in Wichita, our first EEG was clear, and we were back on the PEDS floor and out of the PICU the next day.  We were all set to go home the morning of the 15th, but he awoke to facial twitching again.  Back to the PICU where we stayed for 4 more days.  He was released the night of the 18th.

After the MRI, we learned that Lennon suffered another stroke episode about 2-3 weeks prior to this trip.  This stroke-episode went unnoticed.  There were no seizures. There was no hospital stay. There was a stroke and we couldn't see it, treat it, nothing.  The only sign we saw was the change in his willingness to crawl. How much longer would this kind of damage gone on if we hadn't brought him in? 

Our new concern is that he is showing seizure behaviors when he falls asleep and wakes up.  How are we going to know if he is seizing while I'm sleeping?  We don't hear him. His facial twitches aren't loud.  How are we going to know if he's had a stroke episode if we don't see it?  We can buy baby monitors that have video and review them each morning, I suppose... we can sleep in shifts... we can pray that his new combination of medications povides the reinforcement he needs.

Before we left, we spoke to both of our specialist doctors. Dr. Beltran, our geneticist said that Lennon is unique,  which softer way of saying unknown. Dr. Shah, our neurologist struggled to reassure me when I asked how to handle potential seizures during sleep.  He completely understood our concerns about discerning what is or isn't seizure activity.  It was hard enough when we were just looking at hands and feet, now we are throwing in atypical facial movements as possible myoclonus rather than myoclonic seizures.  This is overwhelming.

Dr. Beltran is working with the clinic at Colorado Childrens Hospital. They have a dedicated mitochondrial clinic and also treated a CARS2 patient before.  We hope to schedule an appointment with them after she speaks to them, since she's already planned to give us a referral.  We are hoping that since they hae experience with CARS2, they may have additional treatment options, including clinical trials.

For now, we are just happy to be together at home.

Sunday, February 18, 2018

Getting Started

After several discussions about whether or not to share Lennon's story with the world, we've decided to give it a try. We were fortunate enough to find the blog www.momentswithjacob.blogspot.com that gave us a great deal of encouragement as well as plan for design.

3 years, 2 months, 16 days (and then some)

It has finally happened.  You've been gone longer than you were here. I miss you every day my beautiful boy.